Inspiration

Regardless the fact it is Monday, I am feeling pretty good! Right now it feels like time is just flying. I am not complaining that is for sure. The more I learn about others going through similar things as I, the stronger I feel about making it through each day. My days have been so full of things to do, it's no wonder the time is flying. We have been taking advantage of summer and its EXTREME heat by going to the pool a lot with the little ones. Cool off and work on the tan all in one :) what more could you ask for? I also love fishing and recently I got to go with one of my bestie's :) It was super hot out but worth it! I am def ready to be out of 100+ weather. But can't complain too much getting to be around all the people I love and care about most :D

My biggest catch of the day :D

Joseph and I's 3rd anniversary is coming up August 2nd! I am patiently waiting for him to get his new address for me so I can send his anniversary package. But I am still trying to think of creative little things to send him that will be unique and special :). Still no word on whether RNR is going to change since he as moved to a new place. It is January as of now, so we will see what happens. About 6 more months until I see him again! I can't believe it's already been 3 months!

Hope everyone has a great day! Just remember another day down is another day closer to your hubs!

This was my inspiration to last me the whole week!

"I love you so much. I miss you its almost been 3 years its really gone by fast. I still remember when we got married. I miss you and love you." - Joseph Lee my handsome :)

He's Coming Back To ME :)

I am so excited!!! It's amazing how something as simple as looking at pictures or watching video of your spouse can make you fall in love with your husband all over again. Deployments and I have a love/hate relationship. I hate that he has to be away and in dangers way, but I love that it reminds me just who I get to spend the rest of my life with. I love that no matter how long we are together, every time he comes back from a deployment or training or whatever it may be, it's like our first date all over again =D.

I've started another video to send to Joseph again this deployment. If you've never done one before you should think about it! It's fun to do and plus he gets to see my smiling face (his favorite :) ) but he can also see our family and friends and how much they support him. One of my favorite parts is getting my niece and nephew on video. He loves them so much and getting to see some of their milestones, even if just on video, will make him smile, of course he would most likely never admit that! LOL. I can't wait until he gets to see William walk for the first time :). I can only imagine when it's your own child how even more rewarding it can be!

It is crazy to think July is half way gone! It honestly does seem like just yesterday I was getting to Kansas and seeing my family and now we are starting week 13 of this stinky deployment! Here's to another week and hoping it flys by just as fast as the others!

<3 Abby

Fell asleep with "him" beside me one night <3

You know you are in a deployment when...

Week 11 DOWN! <3

Laying here in bed as I often do at night, not able to sleep and my mind just wonders, and wonders and wonders...I think of some of the most random things...but hey it usually helps :)

You know you are a spouse of a deployed military member when:
-you refresh your email account every 2 minutes, even though it does that automaticaly
-check his facebook, even though you know he hardly ever gets on it
-send emails to him all through out the day just so you know you won't forget to tell him something important
-you are counting down the weeks until you see embrace him in your arms again
-you miss having those extra clothes to wash and having the dinner ready for him when he gets home from work

I know there are so much more, just all I am thinking of at the moment.  Not talking to my husband for days gets to me. I think so much more and it makes it harder to keep a positive attitude. But on the other hand it also makes the times we talk that much sweeter and special. Days will come and go and before I know it he will be home with me again, God willing. The best advice I could ever give to someone in my shoes is to keep yourself busy. Write your appointments, schedule, fun activities you have planned, on a calendar, visually seeing how busy your week or month is, makes the time go faster. My weekly chain link has also been a great way to see how much time has went by. I would recommend it to anyone :) Even if you start it in the middle of your current deployment. I got the idea of sending each weeks link to your spouse as you take them down. I started doing that this week. I wrote "sweet nothings" on the torn link and wrote the week number on it and put it in an envelope with a letter I wrote to him. I think it will brighten his day each time he gets another link :) It definitely brightens mine!


Hope this brightens someone's day :) And feel free to add to the list of "you know your a military spouse when..."!!!!!!!

11 Weeks Today

I have been pondering lately whether I think I am strong enough for this lifestyle. After feeling down and thinking way to much about it I realized I am not one to judge myself on my own strength. Things will always be harder being a military spouse, but it also has rewards that not every civilian marriage encounters. If you have never been separated from your spouse for months with out option, you will truly never know the amazing feeling we get when we see them for the first time. It's that first date, butterfly feeling, no matter how long you've been together. That is what I hold onto during our time apart. I think of how good that feels whenever I am down and I remember why it's all worth it. God put me on this path of life for a reason, and that too makes me believe I am strong enough to cope with it.

11 Weeks down today :) Hope it keeps going by this fast. I have my rough days but most times I think about it it seems to be going by quickly. So for all of you out there going through the same thing...chin up :)  

6 weeks Down

With 46 weeks left in this deployment it seems like forever until Joseph will be home safe and sound again. Some days are easier than others. Other days I can feel alone even in a crowded room. I miss everything he has to offer when he physically here. To hug me and hold me when I'm sad, to put me in my place when I am being unreasonable.
Don't get me wrong I love every minute I get to talk to him while he is away, sometimes it's more business than pleasure when we have 20 minutes to talk ans lots of things that need to be handled. I know it kills him just as much as me. Pray, pray and pray, that's what get's us through. Support from you all.
Sometimes I just need someone to say, Abby, this is what is going and and this is what we are doing, and yes you are coming! Lol, when I get in a rut, I just need someone to say ok lets go, otherwise, I will sit at home and be a debbie downer. So far Ive filled my schedule to keep me busy most every day. But a busy routine doesn't guarantee your mind wont find time to be sad.
Joseph is doing well. He doesn't like the job they gave him and small group of others at the last minute, but never the less, he is alive and well and that's all that matters. He has his own "room" and living "space" I put those in quotations because as he says its not a ROOM! lol. From what he has told me and what I understand, it's just plywood walls, (not sure if thats the right word), but otherwise, they are really thin "walls". The good thing is he has is own area for all his stuff, plenty of room to stalk up on things he needs. I sent him a t.v. and his xbox and all that fun stuff.
On not such a fun note, I have to get my wisdom teeth out...ICK. I find out on Tuesday when it will be done. On an AMAZING note, I have 18 days of school left and I will officially have a bachelors degree. YaY

Joseph and I the Morning I dropped him off to Deploy.

His bags for the next 12 months :/



I suppose that is all for now <3

Family is Forever

There have been many points in my life where I have hung out with a group of friends. I have always said i'd rather have a few close friends than a large group of friends. I am one of those people who likes to be close to my friends, get to know them, know that i can tell them anything and they won't judge me or blab to others about it. A friend that feels they can confide in me as well with their worries, fears, annoyances, even just vent, and know that I wont tell others about it. The problem I have with groups is I feel like I am always the outside person, two or three or four others always seem to be closer to each other than they are with me. I don't know what that says about me. Selfishness, lack of self confidence?

Thats where my idea of family comes in. I always feel the same around my family. Of course they can get on your nerves like friends can, but in the end they are always there. You can go without seeing family for months even years, yet when you finally do see them you are still as close knit as you were before, well at least for me.

Don't get me wrong, I have some amazing friends and I know we can't always stay as close or be as open with each other as we wish we could. My close friends near and far are what has got me through being away from my family and friends that aren't here.

It doesn't help that my hubby is about to leave for another deployment, so my mood is everywhere lol, just something that has been on my mind for a few weeks, and it always feels better to vent :)

<3

No place that far

Click Here  <<Another song that I relate too :) Love him so much!

I am one of the happiest girls in the world tonight. I picked up the phone tonight to hear my love's voice. I felt like a teenager on her first date again, I had butterfly in my stomach just hearing his voice at the other end of the phone. I don't know that there will be a day that he can be gone and me not feel like that teenage girl to see or hear him!
He told me a date he is suppose to fly home next week but I am trying REALLY hard not to get my hopes set on that day, just because i've been around the Army long enough to know anything can happen to cause that date to change.
I feel like I still have a dozen things to tell him and ask him about, but really I am just so happy that I finally got to hear his voice. <3
Now that my freinds and I have heard when our hubbies our suppose to be coming home (which are all different days by the way, lol, that stinks!) we are going to try to make this next week fly by!! Wish us luck!

Abby May